Jai Sai Master, Babu garu..
Jai Sai Master, Sai Bandhus..
Somu garu, dileep garu, Jai Sai Master!
I wanted to share something after reading your thoughts.
After feeling "if only Master appears in front of me", and sometimes I know how that feeling appears in us, I get these doubts too, after feeling the above, I get the doubt, what would I do if Master came in front of me.
I do a time travel to late 1970s. By that time itself, Sri Master was appearing at multiple places to His devotees. With this time tavel, I already have in my mind, the thought that Master garu is a Dattaswaroopa and so I will try to hold on to Him. (Can I ?)
Now, coming back to the current time, and I am not able to see Master's physical presence. Now, I have Amma garu. Master garu's physical and spiritual extension. Why can't I get the same feeling? why can't I leave everything and hold on to HER feet?
One thing is for sure, my "conditioning", my "weaknesses", my "imperfection" in every state of my life, those are the factors that won't let me hold on to THEIR feet.
I can almost categorically say that if Master were to come in front of me, I would still forget that He is is Dattaswaroopa (atleast some times) because of my conditioning. I guess that's how Masters of the universe work on Earth. The "dirty" magic works on me to ensure that I forget THEM. As soon as THEY are gone from Earth physically, then I realize and regret. What's the use?
If I can somehow develop that "tapana" to hold on to the ONES in front of me.........
I think long time back, I had asked a question "evari sannidhi lo manassu saantini pondutundo..."
Only when I have that conviction that the ONE in front of me is DATTATREYA, then my heart/mind will feel the bliss. Only when I feel the bliss that I can hold on to THEM. In this procedure, the short-comings are from my side. As Sri Chaitanya Swamy told once "The electricity is always flowing. We haven't found the way yet to switch ON to receive the electricity"
Why am I writing this to your replies? aaah!! yes! I was wondering if any one else feels the same way as I do.
Jai Sai Master!