Jai Sai Master, Babu garu..
Jai Sai Master, Sai Bandhus..
Swarup garu, Jai Sai Master..
First off, you can always pick on me, that's how I can evolve in my thinking and that also strengthens my understanding of Master's works of how exactly to pray.
Now, going back to your post, I did not understand a little bit about what you were tring to ask me.
Now say, hypothetically, my daughter is sick and will i have the guts not to "ASK" (wish/need/desire whatever it may be let me put it as - ask) baba cure her fast, but "pray" to supreme to do what is good for her. Is it way different from rain for 9th grade? So is it at this age asking for small thing or big thing? or is it even wrong asking like that? ( i personally "think" not wrong,,,, its just not the best one)
I think 99.99% of the people will not have the guts to ask "do what is good for her". All of us will ask "Baba please get her healthy soon. It is a rare person/bhakta like Rege who asked Baba in such a way and that's why Rege holds a special spot in Master's heart in Sai Leelamrutam.
As for the remaining people, I do not think it is wrong at all to be praying to Baba for a healthy life for ourselves or for our loved ones. Infact, I do not think it is wrong to ask of small things too. But it is my intention to let my thoughts come out to say that I, somehow, differentiated between small and big. Just like you said, "stopping rain for a 9 year maybe a good thing and a very big thing" and it may be a small thing for an adult. That is the evolution that we might make in our thought process by asking Baba.
So, I am guessing you are thinking that I feel it is wrong to be thinking "small" or "big". If I my guess is right, then let me continue.
I personally feel that 9th standard children will have different temperments as per their upbringing about living life, about friends, soceity, about spirituality, about Baba. This upbringing through their parents and peers will have a tremendous impact on how the child prays. I may have prayed Baba to stop rain, which in retrospect is silly for me, but at that time, if I were to read Master's books or if my parents or peers had explained to me that poor farmers are literally waiting with tears in their eyes hoping that atleast those tears will form the rain, then maybe JUST MAYBE I would not have prayed that way. I don't mean to put the blame on my parents or my peers or my karma. I happened to be at that state at that time which Baba deemed it necessary according to my mental strength.
So, going back to my main thinking, what I am trying to say is, it is not at all bad to be asking for small things even after knowing that they are small. Like you said, there are just better things and higher things that we can ask.
Coincidentally, you brought up a very good point in terms of asking Baba to cure a loved one. That is such an important aspect to be developed. Every time I do the parayana of Leelamrutam and I read Rege and his son in dying moments, I ask myself can we ever ever in the next 1000 lives get into that stage of "viswaasam" as Master mentioned, to be saying "Baba do what is right". Can we ever???
OR another example of Kaalu Ram, who asks his father to read a holy book before dying and father could not read it out of deep sadness in his heart. These are exemplary real life stories where Baba wants us to learn but I know it is the toughest.
Speaking from Children's point of view, somehow I feel that their heart is much purer and so whatever they ask is with a Golden heart and Baba will answer. It's left upto us to teach our children what is the right way to pray but at the same time, we have to take their decision of how they pray. We cannot force them. A case in example is, my daughter. There were some times, we explained to her why she needs to share her toys and sometimes she listened and sometimes, did not want to. But if I persist and keep on teaching her with love, I believe that she will learn someday. Maybe when she is a 7th grader, she will pray better than me when I Was a 7th grader. I will bring up that subject again, Where farmers' prayer is more of a "loka kalyaanam" than my daughter's prayer of stopping rain and there are ways to get her to understand that.
So, in terms of this thought process, yes, I do believe that asking for things can be differenetiated as "big" and "small" if that's what you wanted to know.
I just don't know whether my answer gets in line with Babu garu's post of "be careful of what you ask for you get what you pray for.."
Regards to all,
Jai Sai Master!
Ananth